Showing posts with label skin. Show all posts
Showing posts with label skin. Show all posts

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

My New Normal

My new normal consists of taking pictures of my foobs (fake + boobs = foobs) when I am concerned something is wrong and I have no one around to show. Kevin is the lucky recipient of said foob pictures. No, I don't send the pictures to his email, I just wait until he comes home to ask his opinion. Lucky him!

Last night's impromptu photo shoot came about after a pretty intense exercise session on my spin bike. I removed my sports bra and there were these huge irregularly shaped red rashes on my skin around my scars. Sometimes I get little red marks after running or sleeping, but nothing this big and never on both!

I quickly grabbed my cell phone and snapped a bunch of pictures. My foobs were loving life, they always knew modeling was in their near future. They are so vain! Once I felt satisfied that I captured the rashes perfectly I jumped in the shower. By the time I finished showering the red marks were long gone. But I was still somewhat concerned.

Kevin and I decided that my skin was just really flushed from exercising. My face gets pretty red after a run in the heat so why wouldn't my foobs? It's just weird because my real breasts never did that. My skin protecting my foobs has changed rather dramatically since my double mastectomy. It looks a little shiny, feels strangely smooth / slippery, while at the same time it has little bumps on the underside. I don't get it! It's the same skin from before! But I guess if you've been traumatized like my poor chest has, you come out of it a little different.

- J.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

This is why I can't have nice things...

As we all know, I've been complaining on a regular basis about how hard my expanders are and how strange they feel.  Well, now they have become squishy and I don't like that either!  What is a girl who had a double mastectomy to do?!

I have noticed in the last few days that my skin / expanders have been a bit squishy to the touch.  At first I was alarmed because I know the expanders can deflate and god knows I do NOT want a deflated boob!  I called up Dr. Spiro's office and told the nurse Mary Beth what I felt and what was going on.  I told her the expanders do not feel super hard any more and feel more like a barely deflated kickball that needs a lil extra air.

She asked me if I have lost any volume and I haven't.  She asked if I saw any rippling in my skin and I do not.  She reassured me that all of my "symptoms" are normal.  My skin / muscle / soft tissue are becoming more resilient and that is why they are a little squishier to the touch.  She said if I see any rippling to give her a heads up, and to call her if I have any more questions.

I swear I hated the hardness of the expanders, but I was getting used to it!  Now I have to get used to this squishiness?!  MY LIFE!!  DRAMA!!  I haven't had a fill since 2/27/12 so that makes sense too.  I guess when I see Dr. Spiro again next Friday he'll either fill them up and they'll be hard again, or he'll just leave them be.  This feeling is probably what Dr. Spiro wanted when he wanted to fill me up last Tuesday.  I don't know.  I may be making things up now.  Soon I will be a plastic surgeon!

- J.